i'm back

after being away for too long, I'm back. since i wrote i had a bf, a gf, had a fling with a married guy, got a job and lost it two weeks later when the bosses wife found out i did this. so now i'm broke, living at home again and freakin out because i have no money again.

if anyone is reading this and has any good ideas how to earn money, let me know. my experience is fast food. i'm a good learner though and want to work retail.

i think i'm addicted to porn, too, and my mom found out. she caught me playing with myself while watching a dvd a guy sent me. she gave me this lecture about hanging out with "seedy" people and being thought of as a slut. i told her it was the first time i hung out with him and just wanted to see the movie he made. it was fucking hot. he made it in his room with some girl, and my god i think it was the hottest movie i ever seen. he was fucking her ass and she was growling. there is more to it, but i don't want to bore people. what got me off was when he pulled out of her he brought the camera to her asshole and it was like wide open! i told him to put me in his next movie. lol

why i'm dumb

nobody reads this, so this doesn't matter. last night i got 20 dollars for a bj. i agreed to it because i needed money. met the guy at his motel room. blew him. he came in my mouth. i swallowed and pocketed the money.

then he says i'm a whore. i guess so. that sucks. it was easy money and fun. i don't care. i'm dumb.

dave

dave offered to take some pics of me, so i said yes. pics led to sex and now i might be doing a movie. i need money to fly out to nj, though. i'm kinda excited. i've been thinking of being in a porno since i was like 15. this could be so awesome.

i hurt

i almost stopped writing, but i got an e-mail from a guy who reads this and he sent me a picture of his cock. i didn't think it was real. it was though, and now i'm sore.

i met him at his hotel room. asked to see it. wow. wow. wow. he fucked me so hard that i thought i was bleeding. now i can't walk right. there was so much cum in his rubber too that i almost wish we didn't use one. jesus it was a lot.

i'm usually not into size all that much, but it feels good to just let some guy with a big cock fuck the hell out of you every once in a while. he said his wife thinks it hurts and she won't take it up the ass. i didn't either, but i said if he ever comes back i may.

i like doing things wives won't.

keep the porn clips coming to my inbox. hope you enjoy the pics.

dirty dirty dirty

to all you guys and girls sending me nasty little movies ... thanks. i'm floored by everything i see. and yes, when i tell you what i do to them, i mean it.

dude who sent me the video of his gf sucking him and taking a big load in her face -- e-mail me. i lost your address.

stood up

got stood up tonight. thanks a lot. now i got nothing to do. anyone out there want to have fun? nobody even comments on this thing. fuck it.

i don't get it

why is it if you ask a guy for something freaky sexually, they get upset? all i did was ask a guy to lick my ass. i like that from time to time, but he freaked all out and said only gay guys do that stuff. not true, boyo. not true!

i've done freaky things he's asked. just two really because we haven't had sex that much. i let him spit on me when he's fucking me, and i let him jerk off on a plate that i licked clean. he thought it would be cool. i ask for one thing and he loses it. i think i may be done with him.

in related news, i got a psp game for a bj. this trad ething works great.