i'm back

after being away for too long, I'm back. since i wrote i had a bf, a gf, had a fling with a married guy, got a job and lost it two weeks later when the bosses wife found out i did this. so now i'm broke, living at home again and freakin out because i have no money again.

if anyone is reading this and has any good ideas how to earn money, let me know. my experience is fast food. i'm a good learner though and want to work retail.

i think i'm addicted to porn, too, and my mom found out. she caught me playing with myself while watching a dvd a guy sent me. she gave me this lecture about hanging out with "seedy" people and being thought of as a slut. i told her it was the first time i hung out with him and just wanted to see the movie he made. it was fucking hot. he made it in his room with some girl, and my god i think it was the hottest movie i ever seen. he was fucking her ass and she was growling. there is more to it, but i don't want to bore people. what got me off was when he pulled out of her he brought the camera to her asshole and it was like wide open! i told him to put me in his next movie. lol